Sunday, May 10, 2026

Amma: The God We Ever Knew

                             Amma: The God We Ever Knew

                                       Before we understood prayer… we already knew her love.


Amma: The God We Ever Knew
The God We Ever Knew

Some words mean more than just the sounds we say.
They are places we return to when life becomes _______________.
Amma. Maa. Mother. Amme. Abbe.
The words might be different, but the feeling always stays the same.
Before we understood what the world was and is , we understood her voice.
Before we learned how to pray, we knew her touch.
Before we ever imagined God sitting somewhere above the clouds, we had already seen one moving quietly through our home in a faded saree, carrying everyone’s worries as if they weighed nothing.
Maybe that’s why people say a mother is the closest we get to God. Not because she’s perfect, but because she keeps finding hope even when life gives her almost nothing.

The Magic We Never Noticed


The Magic We Never Noticed
The Magic We Never Noticed

When we were children, life felt automatic.
The food was on the plates at the right time, without notice. School uniforms were washed and folded before you even thought of it. Water bottles were cleaned and filled. Medicine arrived before the fever fully settled. Somehow, everything worked just like a wish.
We never stopped to ask how.
That’s the innocence of childhood. We think homes take care of themselves. We don’t see the woman behind every comfort quietly holding everything together with tired hands and sleepless eyes.
We didn’t notice the dreams she set aside so ours could grow.
It’s only later, when we have our own responsibilities, that we understand something important.
A mother is not just someone living inside a house.
She is the reason the house still feels alive.

The Generation That Suffered Quietly


The Generation That Suffered Quietly
The Generation That Suffered Quietly


Our mothers came from a generation that hardly talked about pain.
They didn’t know how to say they were tired in their minds. They didn’t take breaks. They just kept going.
Most of their tears were hidden in the kitchen, behind the noise of pressure cookers and boiling tea.
They skipped buying things for themselves so we could study better. They carried stress, fever, disappointment, and fear without letting it spill into the house. Even on difficult days, they smiled because they wanted us to believe life was stable.
Looking back, that smile seems heroic, yes heroic, which covered a lot of sacrifices that we don’t even  know and will come to know.
Not because it was fake.
But because it lasted through everything.

When The World Moved Forward, She Stayed Back To Hold Us Together


When The World Moved Forward, She Stayed Back To Hold Us Together
She Stayed Back to Hold Us Together


There’s a hard truth many of us realize late in life.
We only see our parents as they are now. We don’t see the years when they were just getting by.
While people around her moved ahead in life, buying homes, celebrating achievements, travelling, and building security, my mother stayed in one place trying to protect her family and her two children from falling apart.
She stood strong against every problem that came our way.
Not for herself.
For us.
Life kept testing her in unexpected ways. Every time things seemed stable, another problem showed up quietly.
Still, she kept going.
I sometimes think mothers from that generation never had the luxury to ask if they were happy. Survival consumed their entire life.
And in the middle of all that struggle, she raised two children.
Her children.
She raised us with great sacrifice, sleepless nights, silent prayers, fears she never shared, and a strength she might not have known she had. One of us slowly grew stronger. And just when her hard work started to pay off, life took away the person she wanted to share it with.
That part of life always hurts me when I think about it deeply. Sometimes life waits until a person reaches the shore, only to take away the one they wanted beside them most.
But even after that, she didn’t stop living for us.
By then, her dreams were no longer about herself. They were about us.

The Day You Realise Your Mother Is Growing Old

The Day You Realise Your Mother Is Growing Old
The Day you realise your mother is growing old


Then one day, life changes again.
You suddenly notice grey hair that was never there before. The same hands that once carried the entire family now struggle to open medicine bottles. The woman who moved fearlessly through crowded streets now walks carefully across roads.
And you feel a heaviness inside.
Because for the first time, you realise your mother is not invincible.
She is human.
She is growing old.
That realisation changes every son and daughter forever.

But Mothers Never Really Change


But Mothers Never Really Change
But Mother Never Really Change


Even now, after everything life has put her through, her habits remain the same.
She still asks, “Did you eat?”
She still waits for phone calls.
She still notices sadness hidden inside a simple “I’m fine.”
That is the thing about mothers. Their love never grows smaller with time. If anything, it becomes quieter and deeper.
Maybe that’s why it feels so comforting to hear one simple message from her:
“Reached safely ah?”
No matter how old we become, part of us will always remain a child waiting for that message.

Before I End This



Some people spend their whole lives searching for peace.

Sometimes… it is sitting quietly beside your mother while she asks simple things like,

“Did you eat?”
“When will you come home?”
“Why are you looking tired?”

If your mother is near you right now, sit beside her for a while.

Not later.
Not after work.
Not after life becomes less busy.

Now.

Because we often forget that the people who love us the most are growing older while silently continuing to care for us the same way they always did.

And the truth is…

No matter how old we become, part of us still waits for her voice, her food, her concern, and the comfort that only she can give.

A mother never asks for greatness from her children.

She doesn’t expect perfection.

She only wants to see her children happy, healthy, smiling, and standing strong in life.

I may not be the perfect son.
I may still have more to give her.
I may still fail in many ways…

But one thing will never change.

My respect for my mother is greater than any prayer I have ever said.

God may have given me life.

But she is the one who filled that life with meaning, warmth, strength, and love.

And honestly…

One of the greatest blessings in my life is that I can still call out one word —

“Amma.”

Happy to be in this world because of you, Amma.


Happy Mother's Day, Amma...!!  
You know what… even if I miss calling her, she calls me back the next moment—first asking if I’ve eaten, then about everything else in my life… and somehow, the conversation always turns more towards my wife and kids than me 😊

Sunday, April 19, 2026

The Fallen Giant: A Powerful Life Lesson from a Wild Mango Tree

 

      The Fallen Giant: A Lesson from a Wild                                            Mango Tree


The Fallen Giant: A Lesson from a Wild Mango Tree
A Lesson from a Wild Mango Tree

It’s the weekend. Finally.
After the late-night grind of a long Friday, I felt a strange kind of relief. My brain was tired, drained, and done for the week. But the mind… the mind was still wandering somewhere, searching for peace.
That week had ended with some good work completed. And while one part of me had already started worrying about Monday, another part wanted to escape. So I got on my bike.
As I’ve said in many of my blogs, a bike ride is where I do my best thinking. That is where many answers come to me. That is where noise becomes a little less noisy.
While riding, I was thinking about my hometown and our farm, where there had been some good news recently. I’m not sure how many of you know about those tiny mangoes we find in and around the Western Ghats. We call them Wild Mangoes. Small fruits… but full of character.
This particular tree was not just another tree in the farm. It was a world by itself. A massive canopy of branches and stems. When you stood near it, you felt like a small ant. It would take at least three people joining hands to circle its trunk.
And that tree had started fruiting heavily again after two long years.
Thousands of mangoes.
As I rode, I was already smiling to myself, planning to call my mother and tell her to prepare the famous pickles we had been missing for years.
The day passed. The next day, I even discussed it with my mother. We planned to make plenty of pickles and share them with relatives and neighbours.

The Boon of the Western Ghats

The Boon of the Western Ghats
Boon of the Western Ghats


Before I get to the heart of the story, let me tell you a little more about this tree.
A Wild Mango tree is a boon to the Western Ghats. Any tree fruiting this heavily is probably a great-grandmother in tree years — maybe 60 or 70 years old, maybe even more. Trees like these are not just trees. They are blessings. They protect the land, hold the soil, give shade, and feed countless birds, insects, and animals.
The taste of the fruit is mouth-watering. The dishes made from them are something else. Once you taste them, you keep waiting for that season again. And the beautiful thing is — even if you find many Wild Mango trees near each other, no two taste exactly the same.
The tree I am talking about stood more than 70 feet tall, rising above almost everything around it. Since our farm is in a hilly region, you could see two giant trees from the entrance itself, standing like guardians and welcoming you with a cool breeze. Out of those two, this one was the tallest — standing there as if it were saluting the Brahmagiri Hills.
Its canopy was like a green empire. It decided who got sunlight and who had to stay in the shade. From its height, it almost looked like it was watching over the smaller plants, the young saplings, the seasonal crops… with a kind of quiet authority.
And I still remember the life under that tree.
There was always sound there.
Birds coming and going. Wings fluttering. Small fights. Sharp calls. Sudden movement between leaves. Even when the farm looked quiet from outside, that tree was never truly silent. It had its own world running above our heads. If you stood under it for a while, you would hear that life before you even noticed it. In many ways, that sound belonged to the farm itself.
Maybe that is why the tree never felt like wood and leaves alone.
It felt alive.
It had survived years of rain, heat, wind, and dry seasons. It had stood through so much that it almost gave the feeling of permanence. Like it would be there forever. Like some things are simply too strong to fall.

The Midnight Call


The Midnight Call
place that always had shade… now open to the sky



Later that weekend, I got a call from my neighbour.
He told me there had been heavy summer rain. Strong winds. Several trees had come down.
And one of them… was our Wild Mango tree.
Usually, when you get a late-night call from your hometown, your heart already knows it is not good news. Even before you say hello, your mind starts preparing for something bad.
That is exactly what happened.
The moment I heard it, I felt as though I had lost someone who had been with us for years. Someone who had silently seen generations come and go.
As my neighbour described the scene, I could imagine it clearly.
The sky didn’t just turn grey. It became dark, bruised, and restless. The wind was no longer a light breeze. It turned into a force—heavy and angry. It was the kind of wind that doesn’t move quietly through the land, but comes as if it has something to prove.
That giant mango tree must have fought.
I could almost hear its branches groaning. Its massive limbs thrashing in the storm. For years, it had stood there as the strongest thing around, carrying that image without question. But this time, the ground beneath it had changed. The soil had softened under relentless rain. The roots, the very thing that held all its greatness together, could no longer hold that giant weight against that raging wind.
And then, with one unbearable moment, it gave way.
By dawn, the king was on the ground.
And after hearing that, I could not sleep.
I kept imagining that place in the farm.
A place that always had shade… now open to the sky.
A place that always had the sound of birds… now suddenly still.
A place that always looked permanent… now broken in one night.
I imagined branches torn apart. Tiny mangoes scattered in the wet mud. The smell of fresh, broken wood in the air. I even thought of the birds — maybe they came in the morning, circled once, and did not understand where their world had gone.
That thought stayed with me the most.
Because when something that looked eternal disappears overnight, the silence it leaves behind is louder than the fall itself.

When Strength Meets Time


When Strength Meets Time
Strength Meet Time


The next day, my mind kept returning to that fallen tree.
Not just because it had fallen.
But because it felt like something more had fallen with it.
A message.
Because life is also like that.
There are people who stand like that tree. Strong voice. Strong position. Money. influence. Confidence. Support. The kind of people who slowly begin to believe they are untouchable. And sometimes, we also believe it. We look at them and think, this man can never fail. This family will never see bad days. This person is too strong to break.
But life does not check your height before testing you.
Time does not care how powerful you look.
One loss. One health issue. One betrayal. One mistake. One bad season. Sometimes that is enough to bring even the strongest-looking person to the ground.
And then life does the opposite too.
The person nobody noticed yesterday may rise tomorrow. The one people ignored may become the strongest soul in the room. The one who had nothing may one day stand with more courage than the one who had everything.
Hero to zero.
Zero to hero.
Life has a strange way of moving people around without asking permission.

The Silent Lesson

The Silent Lesson
Silent Lesson


That is why life must be lived with balance.
When you have everything, do not behave as if you built the sky. What you have today may not stay with you forever.
And when you do not have much, do not sit in shame as if your story is finished. Even dry land waits for rain. Even broken seasons change.
That fallen mango tree taught me something silently.
Strength is beautiful. Growth is beautiful. Standing tall is beautiful.
But pride is dangerous.
The moment we start believing, “I am the strongest. I need nobody. Nothing can happen to me,” life quietly smiles.
Not to insult us.
Not to humiliate us.
But to remind us.
We are all standing only because time is allowing us to stand.
That tree was tall. Maybe the tallest in the farm.
But the day it fell, height had no meaning.
And maybe that is true for human life too.
Do not be arrogant when life is giving you shade.
Do not feel destroyed when life throws you to the ground.
Seasons change.
Position changes.
Strength changes.
Fortune changes.
What should remain is humility.
The tree is no longer standing in the farm.
But strangely, after falling, it began standing inside my thoughts.
Even now, when I think of power, success, ego, struggle, and survival, I remember that Wild Mango tree. Not just as a tree that once stood tall — but as a life that taught me something after its fall.
Sometimes, the tallest things fall not to end their story…
but to teach ours.
I’ll park my story here for now.
This incident left me with many more thoughts, many more messages, and maybe I will speak about them in future blogs.
But for now, I leave you with this:
Has life ever shown you that strength alone is not enough?
Has something ever fallen in front of you… only to leave behind a lesson that never left your mind?

Disclaimer: This story is inspired by real-life events. Any interpretation is personal, and any resemblance to situations is purely coincidental.

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